Ever felt insignificant in the vast, unseen, cruel, cold universe?
Ever found your steps, your daily efforts, chores, even your existence so ineffective that you desire to ceased to be?
Time and time again life reminds us of our helplessness.Every now and then it would come around and mock us saying, "Do what you can to stop me doing what i am" and all we manage is to reach out with our hands in empty air and try to somehow freeze flowing time itself, trying somehow to reverse it so that we can un-walk a tiniest step, take back a single word, prevent a wrong turn,savor a precious moment, but the effort is as fruitless as the thought itself.
A good year is past since you visited this page, and i do hope as i write that you are doing your best in your life ,however uncertain it promises to be.
Starting on a depressing note is not at all a kind method of writing but denying and choosing to remain naive to the very fact of life does not bode well either. To really see the good in life is first to believe it. To the see the importance in any work you do is first to believe in your work. However small it might seem to you, its of utmost importance that you do it because if you don't, nobody else will ( thought borrowed from a movie ). Well at least Ghadhiji said so.
Often we find ourselves facing a situation which requires a mere effort from our side and avoiding it or remaining indifferent to it usually becomes compelling. And whether you take that tiniest, insignificant step or not, might make all the difference for the rest of your life.
Avoiding an old friend or to approach him, looking away hurriedly from sunrise or closing your eyes and letting the young sun rays caress your face, stepping away from somebody crying or to wipe the tears from their eyes, skipping or to confront an injustice, pass by or to drop a coin for charity, voicing your objection to it or just choosing to live with it, saying a word more to apologize, saying thanks again, turning back to look at the beloved faces as you part from them, laughing at a "not so laughable joke", waiting five more minutes at a cafe alone, sharing the last slice of a pizza or to just simply smile at someone. We almost decide without thinking twice at such situations. These smallest decisions of your life might reflect at it forever.
As i always believe that if a flap of butterfly wing can cause a storm at the other side of world( the butterfly effect ), it can just as well, prevent it.
So as you pack for the new semester, as you await for the new batch, give it a thought more before you take split-seconds steps for yourself. You might not be after all, insignificant because you are after all, unique. :)
